The Light of Darkness.

"dark side of the soul"
"in the valley"
"passing through Samaria"
"Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death.."
"going through hell"
"darkness"
"going through changes"

Whenever one goes through this type of experience, the contrast is relative to the individual that is going through it. The spiritual growth that may result from this type of experience is also relative as to transformation, evolution, or understanding one feels they have obtained.

My experience has been that of releasing old beliefs that no longer serve me and coming to the understanding that God is in me. That my Inner Being is love, wise, powerful, and effective. When I am in alignment with my Inner Being there is clarity, vitality, passion, enthusiasm, joy, eagerness, fun, laughter and freedom.

I behold the divinity in me.

This is a new mantra for me. I am accustom to saying Namaskar, I behold the divinity in you. But now, I feel the empowerment to behold the Christ that is in ME. I have the power to create my own reality.

I was feeling disappointed and pissed-off at my-self because I have not manifested the material things that others have. I was judging myself (as were others) that I *should* be doing better than what I am doing because I am smart and spiritual and therefore manifestations should come easy to me.

What I have also come to understand is that my vibrations were contrary to my desires. My desires were contrary to my beliefs. Disconnect. Thus the disconnect in the flow of energy.

The darkness has taught me on a spiritual level just not on the academic level, that wherever I am, God is. I have the Power to see abundance (even when abundance is not apparent). No need to fear the darkness or the unknown because I trust that my Inner Being has already become the vibration of what I desire. My only work is to allow. I can release the control of knowing all details of my future and trust my Inner Being.

I have learned from the teachings of Abraham-Hicks that a key to allowing is self-love. If I truly recognize that God is in me, then I must also recognize on a deeper level that I am love, loved, and loving. I Am one who loves. This includes ME. I am love no matter what.

No matter what appears on the outside, I am love because I love myself. I don't mean superficially but inherently. I was love before I came into this world. Once in physical form in this world and somewhere along the way those outside of me taught me conditional love. Oh, but now I have *become* to the understanding that no one can judge me. For you may not see the physical manifestation of material things, but let me tell you that spiritually I have grown to know that I Am Love, I Am Valuable, and I Am Worthy --- beyond what I say or do or manifest.

I am seeking the kingdom of God inside me and I know and that all else is added unto me.

Revelation of Good

My Aunt shares with me self-help books, motivational books, and/or inspirational books. At the time she sends me a book, I may not know why, nor will she. But why she sends me the book or when she sends me the book, in the whole scheme of things, is really irrelevant. If the book resonates with me, then I will be guided to read it at my appointed time or rather in divine order/divine timing.

My Aunt has recently sent me a “A Complaint Free World”, authored by Will Bowen. I was introduced to this philosophy by way of The Opray Winfrey Show. Will Bowen who is a minister at the Christ Church Unity of Kansas City, Missouri appeared on the Opray Show to talk about the purple compliant plastic complaint bracelet and switching the bracelet from wrist to wrist every time you complain, criticize, or gossip. The crux of the exercise is for 21-consective days keep the purple bracelet on one wrist which is to give you a sense of accomplishment for not complaining, criticizing, nor gossiping for 21 days which leads one to a happier life; basically. This idea was really popular approximately a couple of years ago.

This book was mailed to me by my Aunt along with other items in one of those rectangular garment gift boxes. I have been in receipt of this box for a few weeks now but since wifi connection is not allowing access to the internet, I have journaled, meditated and was guided to pull this book out of the box for a read.

My initial thought was why would my Aunt send me this book on complaining?” I am not a person whom complains on a regular basis and I happen to think I am a person who possesses a positive disposition. To the extent that I have been criticized from others for being in denial because I choose to not complain and look for the positive in a situation. Because I have been taught that what I focus on expands and if I focus on the negative, I will get more of that.

Well, back to the question, why did my Aunt send me this book? I have just commenced with reading this book and it is a good pleasant read. But I have come to a revelation early in this book, the light bulb went on, ah-ah moment, etc. I am feeling the shift on a cellular level. Interestingly enough, this initial revelation does not relate to complaining.

The author is telling the story of when his dog was a victim of a hit and run. Will Bowen and is family are emotionally wrought with pain and grief stricken from this event. He comes to the conclusion that the only way a person could do something this horrific with a cavalier attitude was one was hurting within themselves. “Those who hurt are hurting”, he writes. The author is telling this story because he is explaining why complaining as a result of this event was justified. He felt grief, pain, and discontent which is the definition of complain.

Although I was reading this section of the book, my epiphany had nothing to do with this story either. Or did it?

I had entered into an agreement out of a lack consciousness. I had a desperate desire for a feeling of security, freedom and independence but my underlying vibration was that of lack. So in all actuality, my deep desire for security, freedom and independence, was accurate, but the action I took by entering into this agreement was contrary to what I really wanted.

This is why we should wait for inspired action. Get in alignment first then take inspired action/guidance, if not it will be fruitless.

So what, I have not verbally expressed my grief, pain, or discontent which is the definition of complain, but I have felt the grief, pain, and discontent.

It’s all good anyway because out of the grief/pain/discontent, more desires have developed. Here I am loving, appreciating, and forgiving myself. I am expanding. If nothing else, this part of the book helped to bring me to this point.

I am in the right place, at the right time, doing the right thing.

“On this day, we gather because we have chosen hope over fear, unity of purpose over conflict and discord.” President Barack Obama’s Inaugural Address, Tuesday, January 20, 2009.

I am in the right place: The National Mall, jumbotron #20 something, next to the National World War II Memorial. Approximately 2.8 miles from the U.S. Capitol.

At the right time: Tuesday, January 20th, Between approximately 9:00am and 1:00pm.

Doing the right thing: most certainly, witnessing the inauguration of our 44th President Barack Hussein Obama

I believe the affirmation not only applies to January 20th but to everyday. But January 20th is indelibly marked in my mind. This was/is an experience that impacted me to the core of my being because on so many levels I was transformed.

President Barack Obama said that we had gathered and chosen hope. Hope is that very powerful emotion that transitions you from contentment to optimism. Sometimes when I don’t believe, I can still hope. Hope moves me to better feeling thoughts and gives me a sense of relief. Sometimes I need that sense of relief to remobilize myself, to keep me going in-spite-of.

Hope is that faculty that says that no matter what those around you may believe, you can still hold your hopes and dreams in your heart.

President Obama, I believe, divinely adopted hope as a mantra throughout his campaign and as we know continued to implant in us hope and change when he addressed us on Tuesday, January 20th.

Here we are on the 2nd day of February 2009. What do you hope for? I would encourage you to schedule play-dates with your imagination and list widely and freely all your hopes, remove resistance and explore earth and heaven, physical and non-physical, expand your horizons and seek out that which keeps you riding the wave of life.

Transformative Power of The Inauguration

Transformative Power of The Inauguration


Grace
I am free through the transformative power of grace.

During the most trying of times, divine grace reveals the constant and unfailing activity of Spirit in my life.

When feeling confused, I am blessed by grace as a flash of divine inspiration. In moments of anxiety, grace is the inner knowing of divine love that wells up from within. I am strengthened and comforted, for even in the midst of discord, grace shines the light of understanding and reveals a path of peace.

Grace is the transforming power moving me beyond self-doubt to an understanding of my inner potential. It is light in the darkness and hope in times of despair.

Grace moves in and through my life as whispers of divine wisdom and sparks of insight. It is the power that sets me free.

"When he came and saw the grace of God, he rejoiced, and he exhorted them all to remain faithful to the Lord with steadfast devotion."--Acts 11:23
-1/22/09 Dailyword.com
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There are multiple aspects of this Inauguration that I will continue to write about in the future, but for today, I will briefly and generally mention some of the contrast that occurred in my journey to witness the Inauguration of our 44th President Barack Obama. I will also relate these experiences to the Daily Word passage reprinted above from Daily Word January 2009.

“During the most trying of times…” There were some bumps in the road with travel, logistics, navigation, misinformation, no information, and with finances. This is all I am going to say about this because I refuse to focus more power and energy on those bumps than they deserve. I’ve written before, “What you focus on expands.”

“…divine grace reveals the constant and unfailing activity of Spirit in my life.” As they say in the church sometime, “God showed up and God showed out.” The Holy Spirit definitely “showed up and showed out” in every situation, in every issue, and in every challenge; but through it all, resolutions flowed and guidance showed the way.

“…in the midst of discord, grace shines the light of understanding and reveals a path of peace.” Although discord presented itself, internal peace still found a way to keep me patient, compassionate, and malleable.

“It is light in the darkness and hope in times of despair.” The light and the hope are two sustaining forces that have definitely brought me through despair. In this Inaugural journey for me, hope played such a real part for me that it was the adrenaline or fuel that kept me in the moment to focus on the goodness that was all around me. Whatever setback there was, I knew there was a light in the darkness and my hope new that the goodness was better and more powerful than the despair.

“Grace moves in and through my life as whispers of divine wisdom and sparks of insight. It is the power that sets me free.” When I look back on this trip and think of the contrast that if I allowed it to, could have made this trip unpleasant; divine wisdom, sparks of insight, divine inspiration, divine love, understanding, internal peace, the light of God that surrounds me, and the knowing that wherever I am God is;… the comprehensive goodness and grace of God made this trip absolutely magnificent, memorable and delicious.

This journey is an overall success and I feel great satisfaction in being a part of this historical moment!

I appreciate all Angels for everything you did to facilitate this journey.

To God Be the Glory!

Emotional Inauguration

I have just returned from the 2009 Presidential Inauguration and I am on such an emotional high that, at this particular moment in time, words cannot express what a momentous occasion this was for me.

The adventure of these past days is more real than any reality show could ever capture.
Actually, although others have said this but, Surreal to the utmost.

I was just in the midst of the ultimate in diversity. I met people from Germany, Uganda, Boston, Seattle, Sacramento, Arizona, Colorado, San Francisco, Vermont, Indonesia, Maryland, etc.

All ages from infants in baby carriers strapped on the front of parents to elders being pushed in wheelchairs.

The variety of races and religions present; went off the charts.

Hundreds of thousands...what, estimated 1.4 million people?!!

But we were all there in agreement, connected, and polite to each other.

What a wonderful world we live in!

I love the United States of America!!

Post Inauguration Day

Inauguration 2009 National Prayer Service

As I prepare to travel from D.C., I am watching the National Prayer Service on television.

Watching this Service is emotional on a number of different levels.

The Service was inclusive of many different faiths but yet the spiritual leader participated in a Service that was unified and connected. We are all connected. I keep repeating that because it is such a real dominant feeling for me these days.

Every event that I have attended during this Inauguration, I have a keen sense of the connectedness that goes beyond race, gender, religion, etc.

President Obama attends this National Prayer Service; he has ushered in and compelled people to commit to the higher good of service to human kind. This is actually a reminder because many before President Obama have talked about service. This time we collectively see the demonstration, we see the example in real time of how service can have a global change.

We Are One! Indeed.

My Inauguration Experience

I feel compelled to express myself through this channel to give words to how I am feeling at this particular space and time.

I am here in D.C. (Maryland) to be in the flow of change.

I am watching the Oprah Winfrey Show and just feeling in awe of being part of the mass collective/consciousness in this positive worthy awakening and transformation.

I communicated to my sister as she was writing her blog, that as individuals we've come to D.C. for our own reasons but while standing on the Mall for the We Are One concert and standing next to a lady who traveled from Germany, this demonstrates that we are all really connected and here, I won't say for the same reason but for similar reasons. Solidarity.

As we were greeting and meeting people Sunday our conversations centered around where people traveled from and why did they want to be a part of this Inauguration. It makes me value even more how much strength we have in our diversity. Seeing and talking with people who hail from all walks of life and reside anywhere coming together, flowing together, and aligning.

It's a beautiful thing.